It’s supposed to be a review of Q1
March 30, 2021, 10:45 PM.
I am seated on my reading table with my lamp turned on as I write this. My friend had just left some few minutes ago and I helped myself to akara and bread my babe brought around to my house.
I thought of possibly 1001 ways to begin this writeup and nothing worthwhile came to mind, hence, the manner in which I started. The intention of this letter (I think that’s what I would call it) is to share excerpt of my Q, maybe someone would find it useful and also like a public journal for myself.
You would already know that the time of the first draft and the final draft is days apart, as procrastination wants to do me shege.
I didn’t imagine writing out your goals could amount to so much pressure (maybe na only me). One that I didn’t even bargain for. What I had initially thought was that goal setting motivates you and gears you towards the milestones you’ve set for yourself, no one spoke about the surmounting pressure that accommodates the desire to hit your target.
I had written out a list of things I want to achieve by the end of the year and the weeks that followed were filled with subtle panic attacks as to how I was going to smash each goal I had written.
Asides from the “write out the grade you want to get at the end of the term” I did in secondary school, I don’t remember ever deliberately written out goals and broken them into action plans like I did for the start of 2021, this would be my first rodeo.
Dealing with the pressure was one thing I had to get a hold of, before it would drive me crazy. I decided to reach out to a few people I felt would be able to relate and offer assistance. I spoke to a few people in January and those conversations helped a lot.
I had forgotten the place of time, growth and the intricate beauty of taking small steps.
I really felt I was aware that it would take time and a lot of gradual steps to get things moving in the direction I anticipated, however, anxiety is real and I was anxious, but I am grateful for a more solid realization about the importance of small steps and I am still learning how to take things bit by bit.
For a year I plan on making a shit load of money (I still don’t have an idea how this is going to happen), I feel the first quarter has had me humbled in my rush and gra gra trying to uncover what’s next.
Things unveil with time.
11:19 PM (I dropped my pen to rest, we go continue tomorrow).
8:22 AM, April 1, 2021.
Happy New Month!
I had a lot of things to write yesterday, I was too lazy to get up from my bed to pick up my notepad. So here we are.
Friday, April 9, 2021.
I feel sharing this is still very valid, and besides this is my fight against procrastination.
April begins Q2, (pheew), I want to do more good work and show up even more and that’s exactly what I am going to do.
